A bit on waiting...

When God uses a new day, chirping birds, scripture, and a testimony from 5 years ago to remind me of His faithfulness...

"He who calls you is faithful; he will surely do it..." (1 Thessalonians 5:24)

"But I am like a green olive tree in the house of God. I trust in the steadfast love of God forever and ever. I will thank you forever, because you have done it. I will wait for your name, for it is good, in the presence of the godly." (Psalm 52:8-9)

**Some olive trees grow from root systems 2,000 years old... 

yet the olive producer has to WAIT 15 years for his first good harvest.** 

"Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!" (Psalm 27:14)

**Olive trees are known for their tenacity// persistence, patience, endurance, steadfastness**

"For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him." (Psalm 62:5)

"My times are in your hand..." (Psalm 31:15)

"Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)

**Olive trees can grow in almost any condition.**

"Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times in every way..." (2 Thessalonians 3:16)

++ God's will is what's best for us. ++

A storm... and a sweet study of Scripture.

A little over a year ago, a tornado came through the neighborhoods where our friends, families, and churches are. I was a part of a group that sat huddled together in a middle school's locker room, singing "Jesus Loves Me" and waiting out the storm. The lights flickered and then everything went black. Children were crying. I held my mom's hand and we all silently prayed. 

Eventually the lights came back on. We stood to our feet and we were slowly allowed to leave the building. But seeing the destruction that happened all around us was enough to make us want to retreat back into those locker rooms, close our eyes, and keep praying.

The world around us had been shaken. Torn apart. Houses, striped to the bare bones.

So much of the world around us had crumbled. Fallen. Been destroyed.

But God was at work.

He had protected hundreds of people.

And with time, rebuilding has taken place. 

Rebuilding of houses. Of lives. Of homes. Of families. Of hearts. Of people's faith in Him.

There was purpose in the pain.

Because there was the constant promise of His presence.

Through that whole experience, we learned a lot. We saw firsthand that even the strongest walls can crumble when shaken. Even the deepest foundations can cave in. Even the houses that look unharmed can be left with cracks and a layer of settled dust after the storm is long gone.

My life was not directly impacted by the tornado as many lives were. I didn't lose my home. I didn't lose family momentos. I didn't lose a loved one. 

But almost 1 year after the EF4 tornado wreaked havoc on our community, my life was directly affected by a different shaking.

The great shake of 2014 in my life brought confusion. Heart break. And a lot of tears.

I have experienced many days of sadness... of loss... of anxiety... and of loneliness.

I have been more so than ever before reminded of how our minds are battlefields. 

And how we are constantly in a war... where Christ already has won... but where battles are still raging.

It's a daily... rather moment-by-moment... surrender to trust that this fight is not mine.

God is at work.

And with time, rebuilding will take place. 

There is purpose in the pain.

Because there is the constant promise of His presence.

I haven't been much in a place of investing. Or of pouring out.

Because I'm constantly trying to figure things out.

But I am in a place where I have a lot of time and I have the desire to invest that time wisely.

I've read a lot. I've prayed a lot. I've laid in my bed a lot. I've listened a lot.

In hopes to gain understanding... gain healing... gain peace... gain perspective.

So I may not be in a place right now of being able to DO much like pursue and live loudly.

But in the quietness I'm so frequently consumed by, I find myself in a place of complete capability to connect the dots of what I've read and heard and felt and experienced.

In the deep parts of my heart. On the battlefield that is my mind.

So for anyone who's reading this and trying to fight your own battle... recover from a storm that has struck your life... praying for victory... crying out for relief in your distress... I pray you are encouraged. It'd be a waste for me not to share when the Lord so gently and intentionally has led me to discover truths in Scripture and how everything I encounter is more connected than I ever could have imagined.

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"...we are powerless against this... we do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you." (2 Chronicles 20:12)

"Thus says the Lord to you, 'Do not be afraid and do not be dismayed... for the battle is not yours but God's." (2 Chronicles 20:15)

++DISMAY++

---distress

---extreme anxiety

---sorrow

---pain

---heartache

---suffering

(affects the mind or the body)

"You will not need to fight in this battle. Stand firm, hold your position..." (2 Chronicles 20:17)

What's our position?!

---lean on Him ... trust

"Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us." (Psalm 62:8)

---abide in Him ... keep to

"You only have to hold onto one thing - JESUS... and the grace of it is... He's already holding onto you." (Ann Voskamp)

---enter into His rest ... have peace

"Peace is not something that can be put on a person; it is a fruit of the Spirit, and fruit is the result of abiding in the vine." (Joyce Meyer)

"Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and He delivered them from their distress." (Psalm 107:6)

That's a promise. He delivers. He is a refuge. He is faithful. 

"Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him..." (Psalm 37:7)

He is Jehovah Jireh... the God who provides.

What's up girl?!

it's been over a year since i last posted here. nearly 14 months to be exact. so here is a brief overview of some of the "big events" that the last 14 months have held...

i am in my second year of teaching... and i can't imagine doing anything else at this moment in my life. there are challenges daily, joys and successes often, love letters given frequently, and a whole lot of hope and life spoken over these littles i get to spend my days with!

i live with one of the sweetest families i have ever known... a set of parents, 4 kids and 1 on the way. they strive to represent Christ well in their lives and train up their children in the way they should go... i love experiencing and learning more about real family life with them, especially before i become a wife and mama!

i was a part of a church plant that just launched last weekend! over 300 people came to our first service. it's been an amazing experience to watch the Lord lead and bless the efforts of a group of people who are simply seeking to grow in their relationship with Him and to help lead and connect others to Him and to their community... i am excited to see what is in store for Connect Church!

i'm 24. and this year... 24... i declared it to be one of transFORmation. so far, 5 months into 24, i've lost 20 pounds and have shed 18.5 inches! i don't have a goal weight or size, i just ultimately want to be fit, healthy, and strong. i eat a mostly clean and organic diet... minimal processed foods, very little meat (mostly because what i'd be consciously ok with eating is too expensive for my budget), lots of fruits and veggies, and very little carbs. there's been a shift in my lifestyle and i LOVE it. i will never go back to eating how i used to. know this, i LOVE ice cream and know i always will but i have learned and realized from experience that food is good, yes... and i have all the freedom in the world to eat something, but do i WANT to eat it?! ice cream? i will rarely turn that down. when examining other foods i'm not so in love with? no, i probably don't want to eat it. i'll admit i was addicted to sugar, as are most Americans... and going just a short time without a sugary treat gave me a headache. now, i get a headache if i eat too much sugar! my body and cravings and habits are transforming and i am excited... i can feel muscle in my biceps, i can run 6 miles without having to walk... 5 months ago, i could barely run a mile without feeling like i was about to die. i will also be the first to tell you that i have had to take 1 day at a time in this get-fit journey. some days are hard and i find eating clean/organic/consciously is challenging! but most others, i feel that it is the easiest and most sensible thing in the world to do!

lastly, as i grow older... ha, a whopping TWENTY-FOUR! i cherish my friendships more and more. whether i get 10 minutes or 10 hours with a close friend, i am grateful. whether i will need to drive 3 miles or 3 hours to spend that time with them, i don't mind. my closest friends inspire me. they know me. they care for me so well. and they bless my heart each moment we're together. they teach me. they pray for me. and they make me laugh to the point of tears, sometimes after just a few minutes in each other's presence. i am so grateful to the lord for blessing me with the most genuine friendships i have ever known with the loveliest girls i've ever met. my only wish would be that we could be together all days, always. but i trust that the lord has us where we are for reasons beyond our understanding and that His plans for us are GOOD.

so there you have, that's what's up!

"Finally, all of you, have unity of mind, sympathy, 

brotherly love, a tender heart, and a humble mind."

1 Peter 3:8

fun, full & refreshing

on saturday, took a day trip to st. louis with aunt jill, madee & ben.
enjoyed chik-fil-a for lunch and spent a few hot hours at a cardinals game.
listened to the fudgery crew break it down & got back home 'round 11.

on sunday, a day of reading in the living room, turtleman's call resounding from the TV.
a family dinner of ribs and potatoes & a good few hours with ingrid out and about.

on monday, an interview at a school just 10 minutes from my house.
celebrated lucy's birthday a day late, birthday hat and all.
a family+katie dinner of tacos and enjoying the beep of the microwave.
a relaxing night of practicing wedding hair & watching now&then.

on tuesday, a day out with katie + accepting a 2nd grade teaching position @ Franklin!
watch searching, tiara testing, and gold searching at charming charlie's.
lunch at lou's and a stop at hobby lobby.
out to eat for dinner with my parents at buck's fish & bowl to celebrate employment!
late night of planning & reviewing pinterest for classroom ideas.

on wednesday, a day with the bruers.
manicures on the patio, hammock resting & a little soccer practice with micah.
watched my 1st episode of craft wars then had fun at ce's roller skating party!
ended the night cuddling with lucy.

on thursday, slept in & then went to lunch @ monical's with my mama.
ran a few errands & magazine shopped in lakeshore learning & oriental trading co.
stayed up way too late planning, pinning, and dreaming.

on friday, stopped @ dunkin donuts for a quick breakfast w/ my mom.
found some great deals at garage sales, i.e a vintage cart & kid books for 10 cents!
spent over 8 hours with the dakins, celebrating foster's 6th birthday!
ended the night by releasing paper lanterns and reading a bit of mockingjay.

on saturday, slept in & didn't eat breakfast til 11:30.
labeled, organized, and leveled nearly 150 books for my classroom library.
took a late night-few hour stroll through target.

on sunday, enjoyed a pancake breakfast with our southwestern sweetheart, kate.
shopped at walmart for some school supplies.
added 30 more books to my library & had a relaxing night at home.

on monday, slept til 9 then spent most of the day in thrift stores & at hobbylobby.
started the classroom crafting process, cut maps, made planes, & painted.
loved catching up and laughing with my leah friend.
made chocolate cookies at 11pm, trying to live up the last 7 hours at home.

so after 9 full days at home + 1 in STL, i head back to bloomington in the morning.
i loved spending this past week and a half with family & friends who are like family.
i've been reminded of how much the littlest things matter...
and i feel so grateful for where i am & who i get to live life with.
i feel so blessed.

a mid-July staycation

this week, i have the opportunity to spend 7 days somewhere. i could have chosen bloomington, the place where my community of friends is strong in this season. i could have chosen some beach, planned some simple getaway by myself or with friends. i could have chosen some adventure. i could have chosen to relinquish my free days to watching children in the homes of working parents. but instead of all of this, i chose a staycation. a vacation for a WEEK at my home. in Peoria.

it seems that in the past few years of living in B-N, i have come to Peoria often. some months, most weekends. fall of 2010, several times for days at a time. spring 2011, the same. last summer, often. this past school year, frequently. any of my friends in bloomington could tell you that i love Peoria. i enjoy coming to Peoria because of what it holds... because of who it holds. Peoria is home. although several of the people dearest to my heart live 45 minutes away from Peoria, i feel that a large part of my heart is still in Peoria. i feel refreshed in Peoria, i feel encouraged, i feel empowered... because this is the place where i began so many journeys... its air holds prayers, memories, and stories of nearly 21 years of my life, and that to me is a wonderful place to soak in.

two days in and i am thoroughly enjoying this mid-july staycation!

same sky

imagine all that is happening under this great and beautiful sky...

on dancing

i woke up friday morning from a very vivid dream (a frequent occurrance)...  this particular dream included my grandma, who passed away almost exactly 5 years ago.

in the dream, i heard of suspicious and dangerous behavior in my grandma's neighborhood and because i knew of it, i had to do something about it - i had to get my grandma out of her neighborhood so that she would be safe.

what made this dream unique in my opinion was the fact that it was so relevant to my life right now.  sometimes what i dream reveals something good or meaningful to me that just gets planted somewhere in my heart or mind for future reference.  sometimes a dream reminds me something i've learned or experienced in the past, and that's good too.  but THIS DREAM spoke clearly to me in regards to my present circumstance.

when i went to pick up my grandma, i mentioned nothing of danger but i'm sure i seemed concerned.  this was our conversation:

me: "grandma, we need to go.  i'm going to take you to my house."
grandma: "i want to go dancing."

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when my grandma was alive, i never knew her to be the "dancing type"... to me she was simply this caring and loving woman who liked to do puzzles and could make awesome french toast.  but in this moment, in my dream, when i was captivated by fear, she wanted to go dancing.  i believe that through this dream, the Lord revealed to me that i cannot allow myself to be griped by fear of the unknown or of what i "hear about".  i have to dance.  i have to live in the moments.  i have to BE PRESENT in the part of my life that is happening right now.  there is joy to be found and lived in, and i must choose to live in that instead of any sort of fear.

life can be scary... and this world is certainly a dangerous place.  i realize that JOY needs to be my choice.  sadness has easily overcome me in the past few weeks and fear could very well hold me back in the weeks and months to come, but i need to DANCE... let go, be free, and hear the music... the glorious sounds of life that surround me.

SO, tonight i danced.  literally.  with an almost 1 year old, tutu-wearing little girl on my right hip, her right hand held in and extended forward with my left.  a performance of LMFAO's Party Rock Anthem was on TV and i bounced her and spun her and dipped her in the front living room... and she laughed and i laughed and in those few minutes i felt so carefree.  i was captivated with joy.  willow brought it in her laughter and i felt it in this wonderful presence in the dakin home.

i'm sure that's the kind of dancing my grandma was seeking to experience in my dream.  carefree, heartfelt, spontaneous, fun, and full of joy dancing.

i pray that my life reflects my heartfelt intention to live in the present, choosing joy... and dancing.  how ironic it is that i made a promise to myself a month ago that as a 23 year old, i would dance more...

(last semester of college) favorites!

most common saying: "oh dear"

least favorite saying: "goodbye"

church experience: Easter @ Riverside

treat: twist cone w/ crunch, put upside down in a cup, add extra crunch

restaurant: subway

study place: fusion brew

vacation: simply being at home

inspiring moment(s): all the times spent with my closest friends

way to spend alone time: falling more in love with worship music

way to give: 23 RAOK

verse: matthew 6:25-33

message: Klunke's words around the EOTY bonfire - "Where's your light coming from?"

song: "Give Me Faith" - Elevation Worship

fruit: banana

find/win: a vintage-looking map for less than $5

book: 7 by Jen Hatmaker

new thing: wearing color

craft: fabric coasters for O + C... and a Proverbs 31 scarf for Aly

movie: the miracle worker

show: new girl

drink: cherry berry chiller from McDonald's

website: pinterest

snack: anything chocolate

adventure: 23 RAOK

day trip(s): weekday engagements of two of my dearest friends

first: co-leading a home group

book of the Bible: matthew

breakfast: egg, cheese, and bacon wrap

new hobby: applying for jobs

cookie: sugar

accomplishment: getting my Bachelors Degree

financial investment: a grater... and new grey cozy sheets

reminded: His grace is enough

a sweet exchange

 i gave them limitless hugs, they gave me the widest smiles.

i gave them meaningful high fives, they gave me contagious laughter.

i poked their sides, they squeezed my face.

i taught them about pronouns and contractions, they taught me about patience.

i listened to their stories, they gave me respect.

i gave them choices, they made me proud.

i recognized their successes, they gave me heartfelt compliments.

i encouraged them, they cared for me.

i gave them advice about being a good friend, they gave me hope.

i showed them kindness and love, they boosted my confidence.

i taught them and they taught me.

they opened up my eyes a bit more to some realities of life that i often forget.

they demonstrated boldness in their beliefs.
they reminded me how precious each and every day is.

what a year.

twenty-two third graders touched my life.

and there's evidence that i've touched theirs.

i'm not just "miss davis" to them anymore.
they refer to me as "miss davie" or "miss davio".
i have a relationship with each one of them.
we've made connections, we've reached goals, and we've made memories.

i walked into the classroom in august as a student teacher.

today, i will walk out as a teacher.
ECE is no longer simply a major that labels my academic journey.
this is my passion and these kids have been my life.

i'm now a teacher who is prepared to fulfill the calling to many roles:  

friend. nurse. counselor. parent. biggest fan.

after nearly 170 days of school, this chapter of sweet exchanges has come to a close. 

yet the tale continues...